However, I suffer from lack of motivation. I enjoy competition. It makes me be better at what I do. I’m constantly wondering off doing anything but work, and I have not been able to meet deadlines.

I’m constantly thinking about going back to having an office job vs. being freelance and having that freedom. That freedom does come at a cost, and I have to agree with other people it solely depends on the individual. Hopefully I will figure something out soon. Great article.

I feel like someone who is trying to play tennis or baseball by themself. You hit the ball and no one hits it back to you. You stand there for a while trying to get motivated, and then you just give up… because the only thing you have to look forward to is more of being alone and working without a team. What is there to look forward to or work towards?

Let’s face it, artists and athletes don’t work hard to compete with themselves. They do it to be acknowledged by their peers and their fans. If their end reward was just to feel good about themselves, most of them would lost motivation and give up… just like I did a long time ago. I am the artist type, and I thrive on a team. The opposite is true when I work alone.

It gets depressing being in this house alone. I feel disconnected from society and reality. I’m not the type who likes to go fishing alone, nor am I the type who would thrive alone on a deserted island. I am an extrovert, and I admit it – I need people. I need feedback, I need approval, and I need a team to work on. That obviously does not ring true for everyone, but I believe it does for most people.

At least now I know what my problem is. Thank you for the blog, and thanks to everyone who commented.